I had an encounter with a psychic in a bar about five years ago. I was out doing karaoke with a few friends when I walked up to a table of random people. My idea was to talk to one girl and compliment her on an awesome job singing. As I was invited to sit down to join them, a friend of the girl's mother (who were both there) looked at me and out of the blue said, "You have an old soul and a good spirit but YOU need to find God."
I was like, "Say what bitch! Who asked you?" My friend Paul who was with me at the time was saying stuff like, "Amen, yes she does and how did you know that in 20 seconds of meeting her?"
I learned that this lady was psychic and had predicted numerous things that rang true in the lives of all my "new found friends" and that they 100% believed everything she uttered.
Two weeks later, I started in AA. It was then that I learned that the AA Organization was largely successful due in part to the firm beliefs the members had in God and faith. I figured, at the time, that the psychic was right and that I was on my way to finding God. I made it through AA for nearly a year before flunking out but throughout the entire time, I mostly went to meetings to meet people and to socialize. I stayed sober because I wanted to but I never "worked" the program and I NEVER did that "God thing they all highly recommended. I once again rebelled against Religion and God.
In December of 2010, I honestly found God. My belief in God is on my own terms and I share that honestly. From the perceptions of Church that I've carried since a child, to calling out judgmental people and to finding a loving embrace from church groups, I share it all here in the God Blog.
LOVE
I'm completely fascinated with love. Mostly because I think I've never found it. In Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller, he makes a reference to the fact that he believes that we experience moments of love over a lifetime. To be honest, that's the best analysis I've heard yet.
People claim to have fallen in love for many reasons and everyone has an opinion on how to love, who to love, why to love and what is love. I'm interested.
I'm fascinated with relationships and why some people find their "soul mate" and why others don't.
I'm exploring relationships and love in general with a wide range of people who live with love theories that range from complete fidelity to semi-fidelity, total trust and little white lies. I'm baffled by it.
In addition to this exploration, I need to find my own other half. I'm conflicted on the theory of waiting for love or actively pursuing love.
To online date or not, that is the question.
I've had my palm read one point five times in my life. Her reading was the most accurate definition of me to date.
Although there are times when I want to deny this, I never can.
Once again, an encounter with a psychic has confirmed this.
"You love poker, quit acting like you don't."
So, in this spot, I will analyze my relationship with God as it relates to my life as a poker dealer.
I learned that being All-In for God is a great thing and I am now still stacking my chips after dragging that pot.
Donald Miller
I fell in love with Donald Miller on page 16, way before I knew he was a sexy piece of meat. I read pages 1 threw 15 as if I were listening to the song At Last by Etta James. Pages were intriguing and were lovely and I wanted more and I couldn't wait for the song to begin. Like, the violins and drums and procession of tempo leading into the song, I craved the entirety of the music, I listened attentively and craved the chorus. It was on page 16, the second to the last paragraph where I heard Etta belt out, "At last, my love has come along......" I closed my eyes and tried to process the words that made me love him, "I just want to know what makes those guys over there any different from you and me. They are human. We are human. Why are we any different from them, you know?"
